Slow KoalasThe title is my attempt at picturing happiness. Koalas are happy and cute, right? This blog has pretty much turned into a music review site so here's a little change of direction. Today, I was re-listening to a sermon by a woman I met who sort of heads a ministry in Berkeley called "The Ark". I was listening to it in the library and I was really affected by it. I took notes because I wanted to act like I was doing something while listening. Here's a little of what I got from it.
Each one must do just as he has purposed in his heart, not grudgingly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. -2 Cor. 9:7
There are a lot of times I feel like I must do something to be an ambassador of God's will. Like when we see verses like "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart". The religious spirit says that , "You should have no needs or desires because that is selfish and that is a sin." So we end up hating ourselves (because ofcourse self-hatred looks godly) saying, "I don't care about my own needs, I have no needs... i count myself as nothing...give give give.". But when we ignore and criticize our own needs and ourselves, we end up hating others because there is no root of love founded in the works. I can testify to having resentment for the community over overworking and it's not the fault of other people but it is because I haven't learned to say "no".
ie: Every time the Pharisees saw Jesus giving to a sinner, they would say, "Doesn't he know that guy is a sinner?". The Pharisees' works were apparent and wonderful but their hearts was for their own glory.
This is important. Glorifying someone is revealing the nature of someone else. Glorifying someone is revealing the nature of someone else. So when we glorify God we are revealing his nature. But when we do things out of obligation, we are revealing our own nature and we are directing the glory towards ourselves. So when we are working under obligation, we are actually glorifying ourselves.
One of my favorite stories in the bible is that of Mary and Martha. I really do feel for Martha because I can relate totally. The voice of Martha is "You should ...you should do this if you're a good christian. You're good because of what you do." But this is the voice that God hates. We can't drive ourselves into perfection or goodness because then Jesus' blood doesn't count. Really, we just have to sit down and be in his gaze... like, "I'm going to waste my time being with you." I can do ministry and serve others until I die but unless I let him love me, I 'll never love. Unless I let him love me I'll never love. It's frighteningly beautiful, realizing that there is a God in love that is waiting for us to talk to him.
This is longer than intended and just to put the sermon in application, you are under no obligation to read this all. And in no way do I have any of these principles down, but what a trip. Just an encouragement: We're perfect the way we are. Here's the sermon if you want to listen to it. The sermon is called Martha v. Mary Part. 1.
!Buena suerte a los que estan estudiando!